11/9/2020

I remember everything
that brings shame
And forget everything
that brings joy
Mostly.

That’s a small lie
I tell myself
Because I seem to enjoy
a little self-torture
Sigh.

I assume I’m so hard
on myself
Because if not
my ego might run
Amuck.

Who would I be
Shameless?
Who would tolerate
this monster?
Maybe.

Its far more creative
to punish myself
Than let my spirit
run free
Unchecked.

I lie to myself
Every day
Because the alternative
Feel volatile
Always.